I’ve been back in the country less than 24 hours and I’m moaning already. What the bloody bejeezus is going on with this weather? I am not impressed. Safe to say I had a wonderful time in Kos, it was sunny and beautiful and now I’m thoroughly fed up of being back here.
My sad, I’m back in wet England wearing a fur jacket face.
I must admit, as wonderful as it was, I was in the grips of some major PMT and although I tried not to let it spoil the holiday, it can be really hard to clear the fog so-to-speak. And I’ll be completely honest, my body confidence took a knock, I was bloated and fed up, I felt like the hugest person to have walked the earth, I really had give myself a serious talking to. There was no way in hell I was going to let that niggling voice get the better of me.
The reality was I was one of many big girls that holiday, the majority of which were rocking their swimsuits and bikini’s with pride, which is exactly what I knew I had to do. I don’t know if it was the PMT, the pressure of my first holiday abroad for 5 years or what but for some reason I was being very hard on myself. So I guess what I’m trying to say is, even those of us who come across as super confident and carefree still have wobble days, where the strongest of wills can be crushed by a bad photo, or a quick glance in the mirror.
So here are some pics of me, I’m not stood in a flattering pose, I’ve got no make up on, my hair is a mess. But you know what? Fuck it. It’s me, I’m on a bloody gorgeous beach with my bloody gorgeous family, that’s a whole lot of fabulous right there.
Additional note: I’ve had so much lovely feedback about this post, thank you!!! And through discussion on Facebook i just wanted to add to the post to say – Will my little girl look back at our holiday and think “gosh my mummy was so fat, why did she wear a swimming costume” or will she look back and think “I loved holding my mummy’s hand and jumping off the side of the pool, building sand castles and being wrapped up in her arms when I got out of the sea”. I know it will be the latter. Don’t let your lack of confidence stop you making memories. Life is too short to sit back and watch other people have fun.